Sunshine Forever. Almost.

i forgot to mention the best thing of this month:

i’ll have two acting jobs. just those very small ones with nothing to say. but i don’t care.
love being where movies are made! so tomorrow i’ll be a prostitute (with nothing to do *lol* – thats good

and on may 30th i’ll be a model from a small town. sounds familiar.

this was yesterday:

this should be a relaxed day.
but there are way too many drunk, stoned and dumb people outside in the gardens around me. too many bad and sad stories.
and i wish those people would just go away.
i can’t focus on my life and get sucked into their lifes.
but this is and never was me. i wish i wouldn’t know anyone of them and no one would know me.
oh neighbours.

today i say: i just gonna pretend like i don’t know my neighbours

poor blog.

last post in january and now it is middle may?

so what’s to tell. not much actually.

job is going fine. after almost (not really) getting used to this less responsibility part something big changed et voila: there is more responsibility and stress again.
but in the good way. but it is funny. i mean it seems no matter where i go job-wise there is change (and not always caused by me…)

love. no love. good this way.

sports & ballet. is going fine.

health: oh my. i’m becoming vegan. no kidding. i was so fed up with eating unhealthy and all this crap now there is the way to go. works better than i thought.

photography..art: slow. but it’s coming back too.

people: getting rid of energy-suckers, people who take drugs or drink regulary. people with big money problems. people not working on improving their lifes. not many people left.
searching for funny, artsy, nice and not complaining all the time. searching for people who want to be happy.

can’t believe it is week three at my new job already. time = fast.
new job is nice. and great. and relaxing.
i do struggle a little bit with my old feelings. like a shadow from the old work-place.
including insecurity, can i be how i am? lots of fears and worries all around life. i guess its the aftermath.
but it is getting better.
and it is january – a month that at some point always seems dark and cold and long *lol* but hey, almost over.
on saturday i will finally watch breaking dawn 1, finally.